I’ve been diving deeply into my Vocation (GK20.5), cultivating a contemplative practice that flows into many areas of my life. Through the action steps of my first triangle (Empowered People), I’ve connected with several communities where I can share this practice and grow together — embracing our wounds and learning to serve from the gifts that come through them.

 

This inner work has started to dissolve a lifelong feeling of guilt — the sense that I had to earn my right to exist, to take up space, and to be loved. That old belief, rooted in a deep mistrust of love, is now softening into forgiveness, gentleness, a clearer understanding of relationship dynamics, and a quiet self-assurance I hadn’t known before.

 

Recently, a few long-standing relationships that kept me in a victim state have fallen away. There’s been grief and loss, yes — but also the unexpected arrival of new, beautiful, and nourishing connections that are beginning to take root where I never imagined they could.

 

My capacity to receive love has grown so much. I feel my body relaxing more easily around others. Social interactions used to feel overwhelming and exhausting — even though I always longed for closeness and belonging. Now, there’s more ease.

 

I’ve been setting healthy boundaries more clearly than ever, which is giving me a solid foundation for real connection. I can already sense the impact of these first three months working with the Star Pearl on my Pearl (GK59.1): there’s a refreshing simplicity in being more honest with myself — and with others. That honesty brings more flow in my relationships, even when it takes courage or isn’t fully welcomed by the other. Still, I can lean into trust and stay anchored in my integrity