The Fear Tracker
We each carry a finite store of fear inside our bodies which is related to our karma. As we go through life and evolve, we work through our karma, and that store of fear inside us can be transmuted. The fear creates the illusion that we are separate beings. It creates a duality where we seem to be a ‘you’ and an ‘I’ – where we appear to be separate. But when we remove that separation, there is no ‘you’ or ‘I’, just love, light and interconnection.
The fear is crying out to us to transform it, so we have to keep track of it and be with it when it appears. We can do this in two ways. One way is to wait for fear to appear, and since it is everywhere, you will soon find it, as life provides it over and over again by holding up a mirror. Of course, love is mirrored too, but because fear is in the body, it underlies everything. The other way is, instead of waiting for the fear to manifest, we go hunting for it and we learn to actually track it down. We become a fear tracker. We ask, ‘Where does
fear live in my life? Where am I most afraid? Where am I most unhappy? Where is there most pain?’ Then we go towards that pain and fear.
We hunt that fear down with our love, gentleness, acceptance and contemplation.
We hunt that fear down with our love, gentleness, acceptance and contemplation. We find the fear in our body, and we open to it and acknowledge it and learn from it. We make a space for the fear to be felt, to be listened to and heard, although we don’t have to understand it.
Fear is often multi-levelled, some of it coming from this life, rooted in childhood trauma, and some coming from our ancestors’ trauma, loss or grief. Some fear is from far, far back in our racial genetic memory and we carry it on behalf of humanity as a collective fear. This is the deepest fear – the collective wound of all beings, going right back to the beginning of time. Using this method, we hunt the fear, and when we find it, we give it space.
All fear is finite!
It is important to realise that all fear is finite, and this is an important thing to celebrate, because when you know that, you know there is an end to it. You must always keep that end in sight in your heart, even when you are deep in the midst of it. You allow it in, and you offer it up for the betterment of humanity, or whatever your heart wishes to offer, and then you transmute it day after day.
We have to keep going specifically to those places where fear appears to be strongest, and we just watch it. That is all you have to do. It is like standing on the edge of a cliff. You don’t jump off the cliff. You just stand there. You just go to the edge and look at your fear. That is all this practice requires. Just looking at the fear and being with it will transform it, gradually, over the years.
Through this practice, we are transforming finite reservoirs of fear, and one day, we will get to the last few atoms of fear left inside us. These are the most stubborn ones. We must give these remnants our ultimate gentleness as they disappear into the vast light of the consciousness that lives inside us, behind the fear.
So, I invite you to become a hunter and go and find your fear. Don’t wait for it to find you. And when you have found your fear, be gentle with it as it transmutes, and you will soon find a miracle unravelling before your very heart.
